Dear Soleil ~ at this time in your life, most of the world sees you as painfully shy and maybe… maybe even some might see you as weak. and you are shy, around most people. but, your family ~ we know you are extremely discerning and strong. it is not easy to live like you do, in between two worlds. and you are learning. learning about not being of the world while living on the earth. it can be painful. it’s not easy to stand up for what you believe in. even when you are standing in silence. it’s not easy to let go of expectations that are high and then quickly disappointed.
then, there are some days we worry. we worry that you might be too much of a follower. that you are too quiet when you should be more vocal. that you would rather stay behind the scenes instead of taking your place on the stage to shine. and even though there might be moments, or even seasons when you do follow… we remember. we know whose you are. we trust Jesus to hold you, protect you, strengthen you and carry you. we know that you are following Him.
and as you grow, it will not become easier.
sure, there is a part of me that wishes i could tell you it will get easier. that life will be fair and balanced… and organized. and clean and tidy. and all your ducks will be in a row. and all of your dreams will come true. and life will become a fairy tale if you believe in yourself. well… you know i never tell you that. but isn’t that what all the movies for little girls say? “just believe in yourself. just believe.” we’ve watched so many of these movies, some of them hundreds of times. but you know. you already know! life is not a fairy tale. wishes upon the stars are not true. penny’s will not bring you luck. and there is no fairy god mother who comes to your side every time you shed a tear, ready to sparkle you from head to toe and send you to the ball.
you know you have a daddy, a mommy, a brother and a sister who come to your side and comfort you every time you shed a tear. who squeeze you with big hugs, smother you with kisses and make you laugh when you are upset. you know you have a God who is greater than any fairy tale story could ever peg. and He is by your side every moment of everyday.
there is a specific code, time of day and special key that will unlock your heart and soul. and it helps if there is a full moon and if the stars are aligned… not really, but… 😉 once you open up, the wisdom you share, the beauty that you speak, the love that you give is amazing. it fills us up! and for those… those very few, who are blessed to be close to you, it fills them up too.
you bless us Soleil. we are amazed by who you are. thank you for being you. there are no words descriptive enough to say how much we love you. so we just say it. over and over and over again. until you get tired of hearing it. we love you.
~your fam 🙂
Noted. By Les Babs